Wasn't quite what I expected.

Okay, I said in my last blog that I was all a flutter over Nikki coming over. And I really was. When she finally came over, it was getting late, and she smelled of cigarette smoke and cheap perfume. She walked in the door with some sort of swagger that said "I'm gonna get me some". She was acting like a man. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but if I am going to sleep with a woman, I want to sleep with a woman. Not a fucking dude with a vagina. We sat around, and I have to admit that I was crabby to begin with, but after drinking some wine with Nikki, I loosened up a bit. We start to talk about our "encounter", and she asks how much I liked it. I start to tell her that I really did, and next thing I know, she is on top of me. At first I let it happen, but the more she groped the more I wanted it to stop. I finally excused myself, and went in to the bathroom. I was trying to think of a way out of this mess when I remembered my "pay per use" phone that I got when I thought I lost mine. I turned it on, and called myself. I knew my phone was in the living room, so I came out, answered the phone, then had a conversation with brother and how we was going to jail.

So, I act like I am going to get ready, Nikki acts like she is going to go with me, and I wriggle and squirm my way through the conversation until she says she will catch me tomorrow. I had to keep up appearances, so I left my apartment, locked the door, and got in my truck. I didn't know what kind of vehicle Nikki drove, so I took the back way out of the apartment complex to see if she was following me, which she didn't.

So yeah, my idea of "lesbian romance" didn't pan out. I don't know why I got all girly about it. Yeah, I am a girl, no shit. But i have never subscribed to all that romantic shit. And it's not like what we did had absolutely any romance in it, or intimacy for that matter. But I was caught up in this idea that I had in my head.

I am done with girls? Yes and no. I won't be committing myself to a girl, but if I can continue to have my fun I will.

Love ya