I haven't updated in a while, and although there are many reasons and excuses, I will not bore you.
So, yeah, Randi damn near broke my heart. We have spent the last 3 weeks emailing, chatting, cybering (is that even still a word that people use?), skyping (the good kind where we both get naked and talk dirty and do things with toys), and spending 5 nights together. I travel a ton, and she doesn't. But I have money to spare, so on 2 occasions I have bought her airline tickets to come see me. I was seriously falling for her, and thought she felt the same way for me.
Yeah.......I was wrong. Come to find out, she was only with me "to experiment" with her naughty side, and when it came right down to it, had grown tired of me and our fun, and for lack of a better word "broke up" with me with a text.I spent the next day crying like a little bitch, feeling sorry for myself........wanting to crawl in a fucking hole and die.
That was last Wednesday. I fucking hate that bitch now......I mean we said some stuff to each other that should not have been said, when she knew full well that she was just fucking me. I guess girls can do the same shit as guys when it comes to fucking and leaving.
I am feeling better about myself now, but I still tend to do some destructive shit when I am feeling down. I have been drunk 3 out of the last 5 nights. I did something else stupid, but I don't want to relive that by going in to again.
Anyways, back to work I go.
